Fun times with friends this Halloween...

These lovely people are some of my cousins... falling into the mix of recent beautiful events that have taken place on sunny days under palm trees.







So the older I get the more I realize that my world of extended family becomes more and more viewed in different lights. When was younger and experienced these large trips and time/money set aside for these family gatherings with the mind set of seeing them viewed in the light of a major event, anyone who should be anyone type of feeling. Having the mind set of looking up to people thinking they were so amazing, interesting, fun, the list goes on..... putting people on pedestals! Now in this phase of life, feeling hurt by actions, seeing true characteristics, hearing one thing-seeing another, not having the childlike rosy view on life, I have become slightly hard with a shell of bitterness. And yet I seek Christ to take away my hard, hurt feelings, and feel love. I haven't been able to forgive, and yet I seek forgiveness all the time. I need this time to start forgiving, I pray for this time to begin to forgive...

A new mixed media piece ... "A Step of Faith."

Here is a different view of my image from the pavement.

Chalk Art is an amazing concept... to spend so much time on something that can be so beautiful and yet can only last a day.. a hour.. a min. Cause when that force that you can not control comes into your path you can't do anything about it! You have to sit back and watch the rain wash it away! I have come to the realization that I put so much effort into things.. into people... into events, that I come to the point of being undeniably drained. And when uncontrollable forces wash it away I am left there standing with barely a leg to stand on. I have become drained of my resources. I can NOT have the control! I should never have the control! He is the only one that should have that ability! My sister's wedding is coming and I have to prevent myself from getting to that point!