So the older I get the more I realize that my world of extended family becomes more and more viewed in different lights. When was younger and experienced these large trips and time/money set aside for these family gatherings with the mind set of seeing them viewed in the light of a major event, anyone who should be anyone type of feeling. Having the mind set of looking up to people thinking they were so amazing, interesting, fun, the list goes on..... putting people on pedestals! Now in this phase of life, feeling hurt by actions, seeing true characteristics, hearing one thing-seeing another, not having the childlike rosy view on life, I have become slightly hard with a shell of bitterness. And yet I seek Christ to take away my hard, hurt feelings, and feel love. I haven't been able to forgive, and yet I seek forgiveness all the time. I need this time to start forgiving, I pray for this time to begin to forgive...
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Gorgeous picture.
I think one of the hardest things in life is realizing that something isn't what you thought it was.
I can relate to parts of this...actually I was reflecting today on the difference between seeing life as a child and seeing it as an adult. Seemed much easier (although less real looking back) as a child sometimes, didn't it?
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